I would like to share with you all a profound moment in my life.
One that taught me about patience, the slow progression of internal development, and moving only with gratitude for the present moment through all moments in life.
It was a time when I visited Mount Sinai in search of something... Just something.
Here it is in a poem.
The Mountains Way
Foot over foot over rock over stone
Steadiness and slips of pathways like life's length beneath me
Upwards in the chill before dawns light
A single grip of two extremes in the deserts hands of night and day
The presence of that mountain filled my spiritual lungs
With breath for thoughts beyond the reality of my aching body
Though all this was not what I came for... I thought
It was not enough... I thought
Reaching that mountains top
Sitting in my place before the entrance to the sun
The darkness began to make its retreat
Before a sun that looked new to my eyes
A great light within a sphere
An outer holding of clear skin
Containing limitless light
As sounds from behind me rippled internally from a choirs echoing heart
Still this was not what I came for... I thought
It was not enough... I thought
Foot over foot over rock over stone
None moved quicker then I down that mountain top
Angry...
Letdown...
Still wanting...
Alone...
The steps of feelings flowing behind my stride
And away from me the mountain went
After the sun set on that day
Before an ocean reflecting the heavens
I sat with music in my hands
And illumination filled me from a song
One that filled me with knowing for years to this day
Like a stone forever present
Like a mountain of stone carved by ages of time
I will wait and I will grow in waiting
Listening like a stone
Forming as a rock, sediment by sediment
The mountain gave me all that it should
Replacing wanting with sight
It was all there before me
Within me
Foot over foot over rock over stone
My path winds on.
To clarify, that evening after the morning on top of Mount Sinai, I went alone to the sea seas edge where I was staying. Wanted to sit in silence with all that had happened that day.
I had an iPod with me that I had crammed with songs before I left.
Some of the albums I had never listened to before.
Over 480 songs were on that iPod.
I sat down and hit shuffle.
And the song attached to this post played. Though it was the first time I heard the song and the artist I instantly was attached to its message and felt no other song could of played for me first that night.
That night was over six years ago, over that time of riding the rise and fall of my life, with patience, presence and resulting wisdom. I can look back and know all the messages I missed because I was looking too far ahead and expecting more.
Life plays and shows it's secrets at the exact time you are ready for it.
Be present at the time of those moments by knowing all you have is all you have. You are always exactly where you need to be, before change or progression.
mF
